Last weekend my grandfather passed away. Just six months before his wife, my Granny and greatest accomplice, passed away as well. The weight of hurt and sorrow was weighing really heavy on my soul. I was thinking about my year in Haiti and all of the events that stuck out in my mind were negative, difficult, painful events. The initial things that popped in my head when I thought about the year were death, violent protests, no electricity, rats crawling through my window, mice chewing up my clothes, and sleepless nights because of how hot it was. I reached out to a friend and she suggested I listen to a recent sermon from our church, Hope Community Church. The sermon was about David and Goliath. In the face of David’s greatest obstacle he chose to glorify God instead of his difficulty. The last thing the pastor said that really resonated with me was, “What are you giving the most glory? God or your struggles and difficulties?” Obviously from the third sentence of this paragraph you can see who I’ve been glorifying. In my mind the difficulties characterized and far outweighed the joy of this year in Haiti. I decided I’d write down all of the sweet memories I have from living in Haiti. I wrote down things like learning to be obedient and truly rely on God, sunflowers growing in our garden, the daily, “Good morning princess” greeting from little girls who are the real princesses, seeds being planted through Bible study with the older girls, singing and dancing in the kitchen while cooking, students who can now read, teenagers who show more confidence than they did when I first came, bedtime stories, and living out one of the deepest desires of my heart. To my surprise the list of, “Good things” far outweighed all of the negatives in my mind. When I went to title my list as, “Good things” I messed up and accidentally wrote, “God things” but I think that’s really fitting. When all we can see is darkness and hurt God is redeeming us and the stories of our lives.
Each day Jesus is revealing himself to me in spite of myself and my problem glorifying. I think that as a Christian we have so much hope in the fact that our trials and struggles are not in vain. They matter to God and they are actually good for us. They make us stronger, wiser, and more dependent on the One who is our Rescuer, Protector and Father.
“For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.” -2 Corinthians 4:17-18
God thank you for revealing yourself to us and for interceding for us and fighting for us when we can’t fight anymore. Lord I pray that we become a people who speak about you more than we speak about our problems. I pray that we will become a people who glorify you instead of our struggles and who constantly fix our eyes on you and your love for us. We love you so much Lord! In Jesus name, Amen.