As I’ve transitioned to living in Haiti it hasn’t been easy. A few days after I unpacked my bags and settled into a new home I found out my grandmother who I’m very close to has a cancerous tumor. A few days later some of the staff had to go get our children that were stuck in traffic for three hours due to roadblocks around us and violent protesting. Last night I went to bed with no shower and not much battery left on my phone to let me loved ones know I was okay. Although none of these things are ideal God has sustained me and brought so much peace into my heart.
From the beginning of this journey I have felt unprepared and unqualified. I am learning every day that I don’t have to have a 10 point lesson plan and Pinterest crafts ready. All I need is a heart willing to love and to be used by God.
“Now may the God of peace, who through the blood of the eternal covenant brought back from the dead our Lord Jesus, that great Shepherd of the sheep, equip you with everything good for doing his will, and may he work in us what is pleasing to him, through Jesus Christ, to whom be glory for ever and ever. Amen.”
What I’ve come to know so far is that I don’t have it all figured out and I’m not equipped for this, but every day Jesus is equipping me with His love. All that He asks of me each day is that I reside in Him and to let Him use me.
As someone who has always liked to have a firm grip on my life and the things I feel are in my control, it has honestly been so refreshing to let myself breathe and give God the driver’s sear for a change.
I also have learned so much from the children at the mission. No matter what is going on around them they are so full of joy and life. I’m so thankful God has allowed me to spend my days with them during this season of life. In the 10 days I have lived here they have already changed my thoughts and attitude on how I embrace life.